Thursday, July 02, 2009

LETTING GO OF EXPECTATIONS

We Come From the Stars (Circles of Awareness series) © Sue O'Kieffe 2009
source image: linaria purpurea

We come spinning out of nothingness, scattering stars like dust~Rumi

I have been participating in a monthly reiju blessing since early May. According to Pamir, reiju is an offering of spiritual consciousness and energy; it's a spiritual boost, a divine blessing and transfer of spiritual/healing energy. The first two months I experienced this healing was very positive and uplifting. The other night I just could not settle down with it. My mind was racing, I was agitated and then I became more agitated because I was agitated. My monkey mind was swinging from the trees and there is really no point trying to calm or quiet the mind. There is no trying, grasshopper. And then ... some moments of calm arose and I received information on how to finish the mandala that you see here. I got the picture "use the spiral brushes that you made" and then my monkey mind got all agitated and chattery because humpf that's not the kind of information you are supposed to be receiving now Sue you are supposed to be meditating and in a state of bliss.

What a funny girl I am.

So this morning I finished the mandala and used the spiral brushes and was pleased with the outcome. When I thought about what I wanted to write about in this blog post, again my monkey mind was looking for profundity; as if even though I believe in my heart that we come from the stars, I sure can't write anything authoritative about it. And then I heard this little voice say, well why not write about your experience of creating and how you got to where you are?

I mean, aren't I the only one who can write about my own expertise with any authority?

What a concept.

So here is what I'm learning. When I think an experience is supposed to look the same way all the time, I think I can control what I am experiencing. And trying to control stuff, which is really impossible anyway, leaves me no opportunity to experience the pleasure of the moment. And the moment is really all there is.

Oh, and if you feel inclined, check out the clown-like meditating figures sitting around the edge of the circle. I knew the Great Cosmic Jester was hanging out in those flowers!



We Come from the Stars Mandala




8 comments:

readingsully2 said...

Very lovely. :)

Happy Fourth.

The Artful Eye said...

Monkey mind, I like that. Sometimes I think I live in a constant monkey mind state.

Honest and beautifully written post.

Here's to Independence!

I see the Jesters!

healingmagichands said...

I see the Jesters, and I also seem to see tiny catheads peering out over their heads. Another great image, it almost appears to be 3-Dimensional, laid out over the surface of a sphere.

Pamir | Reiki Help Blog said...

Sue when I got to your page & saw the new mandala, I was mesmerized. My son too said it looks like the fireworks we just saw. And it's more of course. I see a lot of flowers in it.

As for the Reiju experience, often if we predefine experiences, we limit them.

Thing about spiritual & creative energy is that they are sisters.

You got exactly what you needed in Reiju & actually that's what it does...brings you what you need.

Diane Clancy said...

Hi Sue ...

Trust me - you are not the only one who is dealing with similar issues!! I do too! Your mandala is lovely ... and I love the process!

There is a little something for you over at my blog.

http://www.dianeclancy.com/blog/2009/07/premio-meme-award/

~ Diane Clancy
www.DianeClancy.com/blog

www.DianeClancy.etsy.com

Anonymous said...

monkey see, monkey does

like a starfish - much energy in this one...it is the least peaceful one I can recall here ....I read every word..btw (for.ward and back) :)(: j.ohn

Lori Saul said...

A very beautiful mandala- just mesmerizing and meditative. Stunning digital work- I look forward to visiting again!

tammy vitale said...

wow.
whatever you're doing right now, I want some of it (marching right to calendar to clear some mandala space)